the SUperTramp

past few days..mind clouded..wt* am i doin' wid my life ! aim -> nt defined..whr to work..shud i work..my past few months passed by wid my PM stuffing me wid some work only to get it back un-/semi finished..extreme zeal to do smthnn diff..nerds all around discussing various ways to reduce power in the carefully-designed(too much care) circuits blah blah..amongst all this boringly religious discussions of career, pay package and all..watched this so-named Into the Wild movie..suddenly evrything which seemed clueless, ambiguous made sense..if i ever wanted to be some1, it is this guy Christopher McCandless..whole life passed by wid no defined dreams..high & lows in studies..dad telling hw well i cud hv done..full/partial success wid some gals although uncertain whether to commit and ending up saying to myself..is this the gal, i mean.. is this !?!..... coming to the movie, it all starts wid candless saying hw graduation day deceives ppl into thinking hw gud it is while rendering them brain-dead.. partial/no glimpses of their career ahead, wat they will be some time down the line..only to find majority of ppl ending up saying --> shit! i cud hv done smthn else..!! this guy fakes a harvard univ admission, transfers all his bank-accounts to charity ..leaves home..on the way abandons his car, burns wateva money he has taken.. nw all that he is left wid is a back pack( quite huge), water bottle and some books for tp.. starts hiking.. i mean, i used to trek sometimes while at school and been hiking in b'lore..but 2-3 days max.. few weeks ago i happened to look at this message tee of some mountaineering guy which read-- for some games you need 2 balls .. i say, this stuff demands more.. this guy hiked for 2 f**in yrss.. like a PG fun-course in hiking or smthnn.. frm west-virginia all the way to alaska.. i mean nt jst hiking.. he experienced wat all he dreamt off.. encountering various ppl, beaches, rapids, white-water rafting with no license, working in a farm, ending in a foreign-place with no ID, almost making-out (but refusing) with a 16 yr old chick (amazing looking) .. all ALONE.. all the while sending fake grade-reports home which read As in all courses.. all this ended with he consuming a poisonous non-edible mountain plant..reports say he died of starvation/paralysis..
and wen he was abt to die, images & memories of all the things, ppl, adventurous stuff that he encountered/done during his short-span, flashed in front of his eyes ..
realising and stating --> happiness is only felt when shared !
i wish i were candless (alexander supertramp) minus consuming poisonous plants.. smtym in my life (soon i hope ) i wud be doin smthn like this..nt so adventurous may be..but'll be smthnn which wud compensate for this programmer analyst (as they call) job that i m gonna do for the coming years..

-Jeevan